Happily Hurting? That makes NO sense to me!

I'm at an up and a down at the same time. I don't know of very many times that I've been this way. It's kinda weird. I want to wallow in my pain, but I want to jump up and down in excitement at the same time. Can someone explain this to me?

I keep going back to music because I've been watching a LOT less TV and listening to a lot more music. Again, it's an up and down thing. This is the chorus stuck in my head tonight.

"Don't want to reach for me, do you? I mean nothing to you. The little
things give you away."...."All you've ever wanted was someone to truly look
up to you. And six feet underwater...I do." ~ Linkin Park

Tonight, I worked off some exertion and excitement by doing what I hate to do... clean house. LOL. I remember when I was younger and was angry I would clean and clean instead of fight about whatever I was mad about. I'll bet my ex-husband wished I still had THAT habit. LOL!!

Maybe I'll fill in some blanks later on. For now, let me just stew on things a bit and try to get my head back on straight. Let me just say, I'm more up than down. So, don't worry. :)