Reminiscing...

I'm listening to the Phil Collins Face Value CD, and I remember way back in the day listening to all those good songs. They're the musical equivalent of a comfy blanket that you wrap around yourself when you just want to feel.... well, comfy. I am comfy.

Alex saw Justin's sister the other day while working. It made me think of Justin. And as I was making peanut butter balls the other night, it also made me think of him because they are his favorite. He loves peanut butter. LOL. Memories of him keep popping up for one reason or another. So, I called him. We talked for quite a while about a lot of things. Not about dating or relationships or anything like that. Just about "stuff". It was really very nice. I know he hates talking on the phone, but he endulged me for a conversation. (Thanks Justin)

I wrote a poem tonight. Nothing worth sharing. Just words. No thought. I'm just kinda lost in my own little world tonight. I'm not really bored, but I'm relaxed. I am a little lonely, but not "lonely". I think that I'm just not really sure what the heck I'm supposed to be doing right now.

I realize Christmas is right around the corner, but I'm not really into it this year. This is the first year that I am not dating anyone, it's the first year that Alex is shopping for everyone, it's the first year that I just don't feel all that "jolly" about the season. I feel like I'm just going through the motions. I haven't even gotten my tree yet, and Christmas is just a couple of weeks away! I'm such a slacker!

I need some "jolly"! LOL. Someone should shove a handful or two into the Christmas card they send me. LOL. Hold the snow please.